Here we go again

2011 has officially started and I'm still having some problems realizing that another whole year just said goodbye, a year that for me was more like 2 completely different periods in my life. 2010 not only took me across the Atlantic but it made me go through so many different emotions (and places) that they are still taking its toll on me.

I know I sound really dramatic but trust me, I'm not even trying.

First, let's have a quick recap:

• I'm still waiting for the permis de séjour - which I hope I get before February ends. This means I cannot leave Belgium until further notice.
• I haven't resolved my Master's Degree situation still - mainly because I haven't had the time but also because I've been afraid of not getting what I want.
• The photography course isn't going the way I thought it would go so my motivation hasn't been top-notch.
• And more than before I would really love to be in a serious relationship. It's already been a while since my last.

My mental blackout has left some reminisces that I still have to cope with so this should be an interesting start - or so I tell myself.

It's such a change from last year in which I spent the first days of 2010 trekking along the Colca Canyon in Arequipa, trying to find some inner strength and enlightenment to this year, clueless about my near future and in a Belgian city. A complete 180° turn.

I should clarify I'm not complaining though the contrast has overwhelmed me a little. I knew my Latin-American roots were strong and that I would have a hard time adjusting but Oh Boy they have some more power over me than I initially thought.

Mixed feelings, that's what I'm going through, big time.

Nevertheless, I decided that for 2011 I deserve a new start and as a matter of fact I know this year will be the start of my new life.

There are some things that happened last year that have changed my life forever, some for the better and some for the worse, just how life goes. I haven't really shared them here because they're too personal and life-changing. I will talk about them later for sure but first I have to come to terms with them and decide how I'm going to approach them in a written online post - there's so much I can share at this moment in my life.

I think it's time for some other news, some lighter news.

As my New Year resolutions go, one of them is to be more flirtatious and spontaneous. And to my grace or disgrace - I still don't know - I've already seen some results.

What I can share is that some days ago I ended up kissing like there's no tomorrow with a good friend of mine, but because of certain circumstances it would not be wise to go any further and besides we're only friends, or at least I think so. I have to stop pondering about this, really.

Still contradicting and dramatic, this year has a lot more in store for me, pretty much just how life goes. Only thing I can tell for sure is that 2011 will definitely be a year to remember.